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Year of the blog: Day #15 - Worked up.

January 17th, 2018

Day #15


What you lost was never meant to be yours, they always said. T
hen, you lost yourself over people who were never meant to be yours but you, you were always meant to be yours. You are yours. Always. People may come and go and you will always let go but don't let yourself go.

Don't lose yourself.

We lose ourselves when we become swept up in the motions of the ocean of life, and don't attempt to turn around to find our way back until we are fairly deep.

I pray that you quit overthinking, replaying failed scenarios, feeding self doubt and seeing the good in everyone but yourself. You deserve more. Yet, it's in our nature to look at the glass half empty, not because we are naturally negative Nancy's. It's because as survivalists, we've always had to keep an eye out for what could go wrong. Now that our personal safety is not as much of a concern, our brains are still wired to see what is going wrong, and then jump to what could go wrong.

All of the positive affirmations and gratitude in the world will only mask the fact that we'll always being worrying about something. I think knowing that it's a part of us just and something we have to work with, takes the pressure off. Even if other people seem to be more positive and carefree, that's just on the outside, we don't know what they're struggling with on the inside.

I personally have an amazing life. I have many opportunities to better myself and not only exist but live. I've worked hard to be able to write and follow my passions as a career opportunity, but I still wake up with worries, doubts and fears. Nothing will change that.

But cut yourself some slack, we're all in the same boat, even if our well-maintained social media profiles indicate otherwise. We'll never be able to rid ourselves of negative thoughts, but let's work with it, instead of fighting it, that energy can be better spent elsewhere.

- M

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